I am a lousy writer. There, I said it.
You don't see many
people who write as much as I do say that very often. Is that a big
problem for me? Possibly, but I don't think so. It is an obstacle to my end goal, but not a problem I can't solve.
Why am I a lousy writer?
You could say that I hate to write. And you would be correct. I do. I loathe it. I do whatever I can to avoid it. It feels like work. It shouldn't, but it does.
But I am so creative and have so many great ideas that I want to get out there. It is quite the dichotomy that exists inside me. But I know I need to write to get where I want to be. If I could find a way around it I would, but I know I can't.
So really I don't hate it. I hate that I need to do it to get my message out. But that is the reality I am faced with. If I could just stand up at a podium and say it as opposed to having to write it all out I would be happier and more prolific.
But, I can't. I know that.
Here is what I do know about myself:
-It's not a grammar or actual writing of words issue. I can write well enough. I am not someone with a Lit degree from a big time school, but I am not Forrest Gump either. If it was just about writing the words I would be fine. It isn't. Could I write with better punctuation and grammar? Surely I could. But I don't usually make the effort because my message is my thing, not my writing skill.
-I am very creative. I come up with plots, characters and stories that very few can. That is my greatest strength and I never forget that. That is the talent I was given at birth.
-I am a great storyteller. I start telling a story and you will want to listen to me tell it. Storytellers are not always the best writers, and vice-versa. But I do need some writing skills to make sure my story translates from brain to mouth to page.
-I am very artistic. I create scenes that you can visualize. I am much more a producer/director than actor/writer.
-I am well spoken and witty. I talk and you will listen, be captivated even. If I could write as well as I speak I wouldn't be writing this blog. But I can't.
-Even though I speak well, I am not a performer. I verbalize well, but that works better for me as writing which I can then get others to perform. In that way I am neither a writer or performer. I am a creator.
So then, what to do with all of that knowledge? How do I get all my skills and assets into a form that works?
Well, what I have realized, what many in my position realize is that what I have in my head is not what I write. It changes. Significantly. And not for the better.
But what I can do is speak it. I just can't write it. And when I do speak it, when I just let it flow out of my mouth, it comes out mostly how I had it in my head. For many, that happens when they just write. I am not one of those.
Therefore, what I need to do is dictate it, then transcribe or write that dictation down.
Being a lousy writer isn't an issue for me. Trying to write it anyway when I should use another technique is the big issue.
I am going to try dictation instead of writing as my first option. I have never gone about it this way, but I know that when I speak to someone on the phone or at dinner, I tell the story much easier and more accurately than when I simply write it down first. I can always do that later, as long as that transition from my brain to the page becomes synched by using a verbal medium go between.
I am sure I am not the only one who has this issue. Maybe it will work for you as well.